Kiss My Sass
21 days and counting….

No worries first off, this is not going to be one of those, “Oh god I’m dying because he’s not here by my side boo who for me” kind of things. First off I want to say that yes, he’s only gone for training for a month and will be coming back. But he will be getting deployed in July…so I will have to go through that soon enough sadly.

But honestly it sucks so far having him gone, I mean I’m already used to him not always being with me. Since I moved down here back in November it seems like he’s never with me for a month straight, it’s been a day, a few days, a week, a few weeks, and now a month. Damn it sucks a ton, actually no, that’s an understatement. Especially considering that our first year of marriage is consisting of this and when he does actually get deployed I have no idea how long it’ll be exactly.

But I’m staying busy for now, very busy actually. I work 9 hours a day about 6 days a week so by the time the weekend rolls around and I have Sunday off I’m beyond drained but still make plans or go out and do things on my own just to avoid being home all alone. And so far honestly that’s what works best for me. Yes I miss him, a lot, but last thing I want is to be one of those wives that sit around moping, crying over buckets of icecream, or just not moving. No instead I have myself a job, I spend my own money that I make, I meet new people all on my own and do my own damn thing. I want to be one of those wives where when he deploys he’ll be able to talk about how proud of me he is to the guys, and how strong i’m being.

I just honestly hope that he doesn’t think that I’m being an emotional train wreck over here…I mean yeah every time I get to talk to him I tell him how much I miss him, but I’m still being so strong. I just hope he realizes that before he leaves.

Besides that though I can’t wait until he gets back so I can pick him up from base, no matter what time it is, park my car and go running to him and jump into his arms and tell him how much I love him, how much he means to me, and lastly how sorry I am for all of our small stupid fights before he left for training. That’s been one of my biggest regrets since he left last month. :/

Everything about this song is amazing. <3

Let me start this off by saying that there’s nothing I wouldn’t do for this man.

I know we’re young and just married but it’s not like I just met him. Ever since I was a freshman in highschool there has never once been another guy that i’ve met/been with that i’ve loved even remotely close to how much I love him. And the fact that i’m now able to say that i’m actually married to my highschool sweetheart is amazing. Nothing tops that.

He happens to be a U.S Marine which makes things very difficult at times, especially lately. If he’s not gone for training for weeks, then it’s a month, and it gets extremely depressing because it’s just more lost time without him which sucks…:/ And we were both hoping he’d get off of it but because he’s not he’s been beyond stressed lately which has caused us to get into so many stupid fights and arguements. But I look at it as all couples get into fights. We’re no different than others when it comes to that. But despite that we manage to work things out and not let it go on forever because that’s what marriage takes…having those stupid fights but being able to work through them. I mean no matter what challenges our relationship has had to go through we always get through it stronger than before and that’s one of the things I love the most about us. Having such a strong relationship.

But anyway the entire point to this is that………It’s been a month! It’s pretty hard to believe because time really does fly by, but i’m happy. :) I have no idea what the plans are to celebrate, honestly a nice dinner somewhere we both love followed up by going to the boat dock and watching the sunset/looking at stars, followed up by amazing sex…. OR getting something easy and quick while driving onto base to go to the beach and just walk till we can’t anymore talking about anything and everything, followed up by falling into sand laughing and just laying there together watching the sun set and who knows, maybe even stick around long enough to see stars and then follow that up with amazing sex and idk what else and that would be perfect. <3 But I guess most importantly it comes down to just being together and happy for the day to celebrate and i’ll be happy enough.

I love you more than anything else in this world, we’re talking to inifinty and beyond. And here’s to one crazy first month that we’ve gotten through, and to a million more better ones from here. <3

I’m beyond thrilled, we managed to get a kitchen table, couches that are ah-mazingly comfortable, and other important things. It’s officially starting to feel like a home. <3 but of course the weekends over and it’ll be a long week but I look forward to spending every night with him whether we do a ton of things or just chill around doing nothing, as long as I’m with him and he’s not on the field I’m beyond happy. :)

I hate not having him here….This gloomy weather isn’t making me feel any better. And I in a way feel hurt and could cry because I feel like he missed me more when he was gone for four days. It’s 10 this time and I don’t get texts saying how much he misses me and can’t wait to be holding me again. Idk maybe I’m all emotional because of the weather and missing him, and I’m just being crazy. But still, I love getting texts that are all sweet and romantic while he’s gone.:( bring those back please…

Him.

I miss him so much.

I find myself laying here thinking of him as I hear it start raining heavier. I think of how much I’d rather have him keeping me warm right now rather than sleeping outside in a tent on the range.
I get up in the morning by myself and think of how quiet it is. I go to work and wonder how he is, and check my phone for texts even though I don’t get any. I then come home, take my nap, when I do wake up it’s weird to not have him home waking me up with a kiss. I make dinner and eat all by myself. And then go back to bed. Except tonight. Going out in town without him wasn’t the same. Driving around was boring, walking around stores was boring. Shopping was boring. You know you’re in a good relationship when that special person in your life can make everything better, whether it’s grocery shopping, driving around or doing absolutely nothing. It’s these times when I realize just how much I love him.


The worst though is that we both miss eachother so much already and when he goes on his deployment it’ll only get worse. :/

You don&#8217;t belong in there&#8230;.

You don’t belong in there….

This is my marine. But to me, he’s more than that. He’s my bestfriend, my other half, my missing puzzle piece, and as of about 1:40 or so this afternoon, my fiancé. 
We’ve known each other for four years. And even though in those four years we weren’t always together, he always came back to me which is all I could ask for. And now I no longer have to worry about losing him again because he’s all mine, and I’m all his. ❤ And I look forward to getting to spend the rest of my life with him. There isn’t anything else that I’m as sure of. With him everything just feels right, there’s never a time that we’re together and I don’t feel safe, and I never have to pretend to be something I’m not. He knows every single flaw I have, and despite that, he loves me and chooses to spend his life with me. To end this, the only thing I could say is, “His mother raised one amazing son, and I can’t thank her and his stepdad enough for doing so.” 
Always and forever. 💜

This is my marine. But to me, he’s more than that. He’s my bestfriend, my other half, my missing puzzle piece, and as of about 1:40 or so this afternoon, my fiancé. 
We’ve known each other for four years. And even though in those four years we weren’t always together, he always came back to me which is all I could ask for. And now I no longer have to worry about losing him again because he’s all mine, and I’m all his. ❤ And I look forward to getting to spend the rest of my life with him. There isn’t anything else that I’m as sure of. With him everything just feels right, there’s never a time that we’re together and I don’t feel safe, and I never have to pretend to be something I’m not. He knows every single flaw I have, and despite that, he loves me and chooses to spend his life with me. To end this, the only thing I could say is, “His mother raised one amazing son, and I can’t thank her and his stepdad enough for doing so.” 
Always and forever. 💜

Happy because he’s all mine…

Our story goes like this…

Our brothers have been the best of friends since they were in first grade, which meant that I’d usually go over to his house to pick up my brother, or his and see him there. The years went by, I never thought anything would come from it because of the fact that he was a little older and he had this skater edge to him that just made him seem like such a bad-ass. Meanwhile I was this innocent little freshman. Once I started high school I’d see him around, and I remember anytime he’d see me he’d look over and smile at me, which of course would make me look the other way and blush a little. Well, after a while his brother went out to dinner with my family and at it, both him and my brother talked me into texting him, in other words making the first move with him, turns out we kept talking and started dating. It actually lasted about 9 months, and in those 9 months he was my first everything. Sadly though he ended it out of no where. I was so upset that I even hated seeing his brother because he reminded me so much of him. I deleted him off of everything and said to him I was done. However he didn’t listen and started texting me, at the time he was dating someone and would text me about how their relationship consisted of her getting pissed and them just having sex. Which would piss me off more than anything. So I stopped talking to him. A year or so passed and again after I deleted him from everything he came back talking about how he was leaving for boot-camp for the Marines. I felt like with it being so long, and because he was a senior that he had figured things out and regretted what he did, so we kept talking for about 3 months, then he turned around and said after everything that I needed someone that would be there for me and not be far away. I was so hurt at that point, that with having my heart repeatedly get broken that many times from the same person I finally pulled myself together and realized, enough is enough, I’m not going to be one of those girls that let the same guy walk all over them.  So I moved on. I dated plenty of guys after that. I learned plenty of things and got spoiled with some amazing memories, like being asked out on the beach at night. 

Welllll, Surprisingly he came back after another year! This time I had all my walls up, especially because I had a boyfriend at the time. This time though he didn’t rush into anything and I wasn’t waiting around so I dated two more guys. Speed time up a little bit and it’s August of this year, I was now single and he still hadn’t dated any more girls in that time period. He had come back for a surprise visit for his sister’s graduation. He made time to hangout with me pretty much every day that he could. He left, we kept talking, and he finally asked me out again on his way down. Not going to lie, after I said yes I laid there thinking to myself if I just made a huge mistake taking him back after everything that he put me through. But he would apologize as often as he could for everything, and I realized the more time went on just how much he had matured compared to the 15 year old freshman  I used to know him as. October rolled around and he paid for me and my best-friend to go stay in NC for a week. It was the best week ever! We shot guns, went to dinner, I got to see the base, it was just perfect. Especially the sex everyday and showers, and then cuddling till we fell asleep. He even bought me a promise ring and gave it to me once he found me during a game of hide and seek around the hotel and said,” this ring is a promise to a bigger more sparkly ring in the future.” Then I’d get to kiss him goodbye in the morning in his uniform. On the way to drop us off for our train me and him fell asleep leaning on each other in the car, and when we finally got there I sadly could only give him a quick hug and then rushed onto the train because I was first off late, and so sad that I just started bawling when I got on. For my birthday he wasn’t here, so he sent me gifts and my favorite flowers. And he was back for Thanksgiving. When he went back down I went with him. They were the best three weeks. He would get me anything I needed, and the fact that I could be with him everyday made me beyond happy. We drove around the base, would go walking, cook together, kill zombies, go to dinner, meet people, have sex as often as we wanted. It was amazing.  The last week we were there we went to a pet store. I fell in LOVE with a little puppy but sadly I couldn’t get it. However I also fell in love with a kitten, Lua. Once he noticed this he bought her for me. Everything kept going great, we’d joke, act like kids in public, take pictures, but it got bad one morning and stressful for me when after having sex he comes back into the room from the bathroom and told me it broke. I went upstairs and sat in the bottom of the shower crying. When I came down he told me not to worry, he had a plan. He’s so good though that to make me laugh he put on a movie that’s about getting pregnant. 10 rolled around and he got up to get ready and told me to do the same, because the pharmacy was open. We went and he drove to a few pawn shops, and sold his bass and amp, called a friend who owed him money all to be able to go buy me PlanB. After that he took me to the mall just to help my mood for the day. When we got back I took it and sure enough felt like shitttt. He laid there with me though, watching movies, rubbing my back and let me fall asleep. Anytime I’d wake up he’d kiss me and ask how I was feeling. Let me just say that in that moment in time, besides worrying about how sick I felt, I realized, damn…no other guy would ever do that for me. I realized that he was right that he had matured a hell of a lot more, and that I loved him more than I could put into words for selling his stuff and doing everything he could to buy me what I needed. I couldn’t have a better boyfriend. 

I know every girl talks about how lucky they are and how much they love their boyfriends. But honestly I mean it when I say it about mine, there isn’t a single thing I’d change. He drives me to appointments, takes me shopping, buys me a cat because I fell in love with her, gets me anything I need, makes me laugh whenever,  not only deals with my sassyness and sarcasm but also loves it, doesn’t change anything about me, looks at me everyday like I could put the stars in the sky (which i’ve never had before), does lyrics for goodmorning/goodnight texts when we’re not together, gives me amazing massages, shampoos and conditions my hair in the shower, brushes my hair, straightens it for me, paints my nails, makes me coffee, buys me peanut butter cups when he sticks his foot in his mouth, lets me choose the music in the car, watches kids movies with me, we can act like kids in public and not care what anyone thinks, anyone could give you compliments but his mean so much more to me, he remembers every important thing i’ve ever told him, talks about our future together, sings to me, tells me how he’d buy me tampons if he needed to and quite frankly looks forward to being able to do so in the future. No ones perfect and I love him for everything, even the little things that get me pissed. If he could deal with my attitudes and everything, and considering we never fight, EVER, and his entire family loves me, then he without a doubt is the only guy I want to spend the rest of my life with, I love him more than anything else in the world. Always and forever. <3 

You know you’ve found a great guy when….

  • The two of you can sit there and even if nothings said, you’re fine with it.
  • He enjoys showing you off to everyone.
  • You’re permanently on his good side no matter what.
  • He talks about his future with you.
  • He tries to put your happiness before his own.
  • He talks about how in the future he wouldn’t mind going to get you anything you’d need, even if it means having to buy you tampons.
  • He remembers every important thing about you.
  • He doesn’t try to change anything about you.